I've been thinking a lot about New Years Resolutions. I really felt that I needed to find a resolution that would help me change my relationship with food. I make poor food choices and I beat myself up. I make good food choices and I reward myself with what? "Bad" foods and wine. I eat my feelings. I stress eat. I eat to socialize. I eat to NOT socialize. I eat nothing but salad to lose weight. I eat nothing but crap to make up for it once I've lost weight. I'm sick of thinking about food.
Then somebody sent me this article. http://www.eattoperform.com/2015/09/02/why-youre-not-getting-results-by-paul-nobles/ It is such a good description of how I've approached food in the past few years!
I realized, I don't need to change my relationship with food. I SHOULD eat my feelings (although maybe my feeling should occasionally be an apple instead of an apple pie) I stand up for TWELVE HOURS at work. Seriously, I never get to sit down. So I SHOULD eat carbohydrates with my protein and vegetables. I SHOULD eat to socialize. We just moved to a new state. We are making new friends and starting new jobs. We like to cook, we like to eat out, and we like to spend time with other people. No. Food is not the relationship I need to change.
I need to change my relationship with my body. With how I feel about it. With how I treat it. With how I fuel it. I need to stop looking at a number on the scale or in a waistband and letting it define me. I've weighed 101lbs and 150lbs and everywhere in between. I've run a 5K, a 10k, a 1/2 marathon. I've given birth to two beautiful babies. I've kayaked, surfed (poorly), and skied. I've lain around and watched movies. I've been lazy. I've been active. My body has been my temple and my garbage dump. And it is time to change that.
This years goal is not to change my body. This years goal is to change how I think about my body. Wish me luck.
